Writings and musings

I Am Close-Minded

2008-11-11T17:07:00.000-08:00

I stand for what I believe in,
I pray for everyone's safety,
I help others whenever I can,
I am close-minded.

I love the One who saved me,
Who saved the world too,
I do my best to live with morals and truth,
I am close-minded.

I despise murder and hate,
I know what is right and what is wrong,
I give love as Jesus gave love to me,
I am close-minded.

You say that I am wrong,
That my beliefs are hateful,
You tell me to change my ways to yours,
I am close-minded.

Our society is guiltless,
Full of drugs, anger and disease,
I stand against all of these things,
I am close-minded.

Are you sure?

These Lives

2008-11-11T16:58:00.000-08:00

A Life that was cherished,
Was a Life that was lost.
A Life that was loved,
Is a Life that is gone.

The landscape was scarred,
The skyline was battered,
Our emotions, torn, and were scattered.
A father, mother, sister, brother or friend,
For the Lives we will fight to the end.

These Lives we will always remember,
When there is an empty chair for the feast in November.
And tears are shed throughout the nation,
When we hear their favorite song on the radio station.

For these Lives we will live,
for these Lives we will cry,
But fellow citizens, do not forget,
The Life they gave will never die.

For all those who died on 9/11/01.
For all those who have forgotten 9/11/01

The Elections

2008-11-11T16:52:00.000-08:00

Ah....our new President. Can't say that I'm thrilled, but hey, if Obama is what the majority wants, then they sure as heck got him. I'll give him his chance, and I won't speak a word against him, unless he nationalizes healthcare, then I shall go into a ranting fit. =) *sigh* oh well, not much I can do about it, guess the only thing to do is pray for the safety of our country. Well! I let that out a bit, though Anthony was the real one who was on my vent list on this issue, hehe.

Night

2008-11-11T16:45:00.000-08:00

As the sun falls, the bleak darkness will come,
Stealing the light and filling my heart with fear.
Surrounding my mind like a dank, black sphere.
It chills my bones, my flesh it will quietly numb,
And its' coldness I cannot overcome.
I watch it arrive, mocking with a jeer,
Laughing wickedly, its' face in a sneer.
The brightness gone, right to the last...small...crumb.
I cannot escape, my feet rooted down.
As chaos descends, my head is in a fray.

But then I kneel down, and to God I pray,
His mercy ceasing my mental breakdown.
To Him I will give my life and my soul,
He takes my brokenness and makes me whole.

Song of Myself

2008-09-02T11:49:00.000-07:00

For every atom in my being, my soul rejoices,
each particle dances with individuality and delight.
The music of my personality sets their feet on fire,
and the essence of me rouses their laughter.

Clear and sweet are the fragrances of life,
for each being an aura of joy surrounds its existence.
Celebrate the simple, exalt in the small,
the festival of life has begun.

As lucky to die, as lucky to live, as lucky to see the light.
Every day a special gift and a new surprise,
the minutes pass by, the day fades,
do not allow time to escape.

I will not have a single person slighted or left away,
let all who will come and enjoy the feast of celebration.
None will I turn away, none will I refuse.
May I see the beauty and excitement of individuality.

Earth of shine and dark impress upon me,
the greatness of the landscape quiets and awes my soul,
the colors of a single flower excite my spirit.
May the rivers flow swift and true,
and the mountains ever tower in their majesty.

All truths wait in all things,
and the small truths hold all value.
They hide yet they do not, each holds its own mystery.
Every truth is there to be seen and to be beheld.

I smell the white roses and see their meaning,
the cycle of life is drawing to a close.
I fear not, for my natural life has been spent,
and I do not regret the days gone by.

I depart this earth to my one true home,
leaving behind my mortal chains.
My spirit flies away to the One of my Salvation,
those pearly gates open to a new life of eternity.

Down Away I Go Today

2008-08-12T15:39:00.000-07:00

Down away I go today,
To face my fear tonight.
I hope to win, I hope, I pray.

I meet my fear at midday,
At the end of dusk's last light.
Down away I go today.

Dancing about in a twisted swordplay,
The fear moving and giving it's fight.
I hope to win, I hope, I pray.

Although it is fierce, I shall stay,
Our blades glinting off the moonlight.
Down away I go today.

I then strike, it's potency I take away,
It falls after lasting a fortnight.
I hope to win, I hope, I pray.

I faced my fear after a long delay,
With its hold I disunite.
Down away I go today,
I hope to win, I hope, I pray.

I want to be with you

2008-08-03T23:31:00.000-07:00

I don't want to see you leave, but I know it hurts to stay. I love you too much to let you go, but I am at peace because I know you are with God. The time we had, the love we shared, I won't let it go away.

I want to be with you, in the Heaven that you've found. I want to be near you, hold your hand and say, "I love you."

This world is an empty shell, compared to where you are. A shining light, free of pain, where darkness has no hold. A place of lasting love with Jesus at your side.

You held fast to the truth in your heart, loving us all as Christ loved you. Sing there for me with Him, keeping a place for me close to you. I can only pray, only hope, that I live a life as full as you have.

Written in honor and memory of John E. Hagopian, November 6, 1931-May 2, 2008.
Loving husband, father, grandfather and great-grandfather.
I hope you're watching me now, grandpa, I'm singing for you and for God.
P.S. you better be the loudest and best tenor Heaven has ever seen.

My Secret Place

2008-08-03T23:19:00.000-07:00

In this Solitary Secret Place my soul is at ease. Here is where my heart finds peace, here where His Presence dwells. Before I come I feel His Spirit within me, calling me to this Secret Place. This is where I commune with my Lord.
This place, though small at first in my eyes, completely engulfs me in Abba's mercy. This small place grows, for it cannot contain His Presence. As it grows my soul grows with it. His love spreads out from here and reaches out to the hearts and lives You have touched through me.
Welcome me home, Lord, Welcome me home.

Written in honor and loving memory of Anne M. Hagopian, November 12, 1931-July 28, 2008.
Wonderful wife, mother, grandmother and great-grandmother.
May your voice ring throughout Heaven and be pleasing to God. I love you, Grandma.

Looking Back

2008-08-03T22:58:00.000-07:00

I just took a look at my senior yearbook. Its amazing what you remember when you actually stop to look back! Seeing old friends I keep in touch with, and smacking myself for the friends I've forgotten. It was also fun reading the comments from teachers, trying to figure out if they really liked me or not. Who knows? Maybe one day I'll run into them again and I can ask them face to face, as a mature adult instead of an unsure teenager. Seeing good-bye messages from friends and acquaintances brought some tears to my eyes, because I didn't realize how many relationships could have been if I had just stepped up and made an effort to get to know those around me. And who knew what would happen in these 4 short years. I certainly know I wasn't expecting my life to be as it is now, but I wouldn't trade my little girl for anything. If anyone happens to read this and remembers me, leave a comment and say hello! And to all I may have hurt or brushed aside in high school, I only can ask that you forgive me, and I wish you all the best in luck for your future, and that God may bless your lives as much as He has blessed mine.

First come, first time

2008-08-02T13:49:00.000-07:00

Hey there, all. I've made this blog to put down all of my poetry, songs, and whatever musings come to my head. My next blog will have the 2 writings I wrote in memory of my grandparents, John and Anne Hagopian. Until I do, they both can be read at my mother's blog for them, awalktotheend.blogspot.com. I ask anyone who reads this to please go to that blog, both my grandparents lived incredible lives and they deserve the recognition. Thank you once again, and thoughts, songs and poems will be arriving soon!
-Ems